21 days to my 21st on the 21st..

First of all,i probably might not make it to the 21st. Its always by God's grace that such things happen..and for that i thank Him...

Ever since i was 14,every year on my birthday,i write myself a letter. Within this letter i tell myself of all the things i've gone through in the past year,the changes i've passed through,what i've learnt and who i've grown into. And every year on the day after my birthday,i reread that letter then unceremoniously tear it up into shreds..and now you know something you didn't know about me..

This year i turn 21,which according to world social standards is a big step..more so for me,i turn 21 on the 21st(you realize you only turn your birthdate once in your life hence the excitement). I'd planned on writing out the above heading on my blog a few months ago. I was meant to write about all the things i wanted to do before 21,you know the usual,piercings,girl on girl experience,bungee jumping,attemps at tatoos,serial dating,going to a casino etc(you get the point right??) i'd wanted to share about the stuff i wanted to do now that i was 21,floss about how am now worldwide legal and stuff like that..i had a lot riding on my mind bout this 21 post,till this evening..

21days to my 21st,this particular evening that is today,i happened to have an amazing talk with one of the most intellectual ppl i know..it started out with a walk in the drizzle,one of the few things i actually like doing(yeah,walkin in the rain) and most randomly we ended up having a drink over conversation waiting for the rain to get bored and stop pouring...and within that 1hour,i finally realized what i really wanted to be written in this piece...

We all have good days and we all have bad days. We all have ways of dealing with our bad days. We all have ways of sharing the joys of our good days. We all have ppl who ruin your day. We all have ppl who make you smile during your worst times. We all have dreams of what we want to become. we all have regrets of how part of us turned out. Life is an oxymoron of sorts. Its a beautiful lie,its the ugly truth. But life is what we make it with the help of He who made us. Its what we choose our friends to be,its what we choose to be to our families. Its what we choose to know and to learn, its what we choose to desire to discover...We all have good days and bad days..and those shall soon come to pass..so in my 21st year, i'll choose to be the best daughter,sister,aunt,niece,friend,mother,mentor,teacher and person that i can possibly be..and through those things learn the important things of this life...to live,to laugh,to love and above all to worship in every circumstance...for without His grace,where would i be??

There is a thread from the heart to the lips,
Where the secret of life is woven,
Words tear the thread but in silence the secret speaks..

I fear i have overstepped my silence..

To any one who reads this,may you be blessed with a wonderful year..say what you need to say,and remember to Live,Laugh and Love..and die happy:-)

Xoxo
Me:-)